It's a game. It has many versions. All about it is not real. All except for pain. Then why do I keep coming back for it? I dont like hurt. Maybe it's a lie too. Maybe I like it. I don't want to like it anymore. I just want to be drifted and let go. I want to be weak in Him.

16th June 2010

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Luna Online

Im a big fan of this game.

They call their world the great land of the blue. It sounds like as if it’s a name of a place from a dream. It’s ironic how the colors of my dreams are often faint and bland, while this electronic game’s colors are brighter than the colors that I see when I’m awake. Maybe that’s why I like it. There are so many things in that world that I don’t have to do.

I don’t have to look deeper and see more detail. I don’t have to choose which path to go. I dont need to be open to understand, and I dont need to suffer to feel power. It’s a nice prison.

Smalltalk guy: I love rpgs.

Me: Oh so that’s why you love them. ‘Because of your issues.

Smalltalk guy: Everybody has issues. RPG is just one of the things we can use to escape.

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